The Beginnings - Part 107: DEPARTED ON GOOD-TERMS

“Your eyes will suffice to give tired men hope.”
-as heard while watching the
2009 film, NEW YORK, I LOVE YOU

The Beginnings – Part 107:   DEPARTED ON GOOD-TERMS

October 18, 1983

I didn’t sleep very well last night.  I was tossing and turning.  I kept thinking and analyzing my situation with George and his many friends and his lying and cancelling-out on me.   I am simply taking it all in stride.   I will not call him as much to show him that he cannot truly take me for granted all of the time.   I want him to want me (Yes, just like the song by CHEAP TRICK).   Ironically, in the long run he could be a ‘cheap trick’.   I won’t smother him in this relationship.

This afternoon I went to the FTS Flower Shop to purchase flowers for Charlene.   It’s her last day and Pacific Telephone.  

Salima and I walked to BART together after work. 

Salima announced sweetly, “You know, Michael.   I’m treating you to lunch tomorrow!”
Actually, she has the day off tomorrow but she said she’d treat me on Thursday. Ha-ha.

I telephoned Tammy Duhr during my break time today.   We made a mutual decision to go to the skating rink together tonight.

Tammy said, “I just want to see if my friend, Jeff, will show up.”
I didn’t say it aloud but I wanted to see if George would show up.

I went to MACY’s for a new pair of 501 LEVI jeans.   After that Tammy accompanied me to QUIK STOP for some grapefruit juice and vodka.   We both felt we needed a buzz before we walked into that ‘gay skating rink’.  

I was rather pissed when I walked in because I did—in fact—see George there.   I am sure he saw me.   He ignored me for a minute.   I learned (later) from his friend, Kevin, what he was doing there. 
Kevin whispered, “Michael…George isn’t out gallivanting.   He’s just out to get addresses and telephone numbers for Dan and Ken’s Halloween Party.”

George also got laid-off from his Fiberglass job.  He has plans for a job as a clerk at the Pacific Coast Stock Exchange in San Francisco.  

George said, “If that doesn’t pan out I may get something from Kevin’s friend.”
George was referring to that so-called older, rich gentleman friend that Kevin knows so well.

Before the night was over I did actually fool around with George by way of kissing and hugging outside in the parking-lot.    We looked deep into each other’s eyes.   There was something there.

George said, “I want to point out that I’m not ignoring you.”
We departed on good-terms.
“I’ll talk to you tomorrow,” George said.
I know I cannot and will not depend on that.

Nici Maurino invited me out for dinner.   It was nice to get that message on my answering machine when I arrived home.

Tammy gave me two of her photographs before I dropped her off at her house in Hayward.  I would say we also departed on good-terms.

“Fish don’t do well out of water.”

-WHITE COLLAR
Season III, Episode 15: Stealing Home