A 'No Go'

If there was a surprise in all this, it was only that he didn’t give a damn anymore.
Olen Steinhauer,
THE NEAREST EXIT

Twenty-five years ago today:

June 19, 1987
Friday

There was practically no sign of Stacey all week. She rarely sleeps here. It’s fine with me. I just want the rent check.

This was a ‘no go’ day for the gym.

Mom had the night off, so I went over to keep her company. I had dinner and simply hung out over there.

I was home by 10:30PM and simply went to bed. It was a quick and relaxing Friday. Yawn.

If looking at someone with desire was as bad as satisfying the desire, if having an active fantasy was as bad as the act you were fantasizing…then why not the satisfaction and the act itself? As the days went on, I discovered that I couldn’t stop thinking sinful thoughts. In which case I also wanted the sin itself.
-Bernhard Schlink
THE READER