The relationship between them was based on the solid principle of mutual acceptance and the ability to laugh together at almost everything.
-Isabel Allende
THE LOVERS, THE HOUSE OF THE SPIRITS
The Beginnings – Part 132:
IT WASN’T FAIR
Saturday, November 12, 1983
It is Saturday morning ‘now’ and Rick Clark did not bother to call me at the midnight hour. I woke up and was in the mood for pedaling, so I hopped on my bike and ended up at the Radio Shack at South Shore Shopping Center. I needed new batteries for my SONY headphone radio. It started to rain but the drizzle felt rather refreshing. I loved the drips. The bike ride still felt physically good and refreshing with the fresh rainfall on my face.
I rode my bike directly to mom and dad’s house for a filling breakfast. I decided to leave my bike there and accompanied my brother, John, with his friend, Marty (in Marty’s car). I showered while back home and lounged in front of the TV with John.
I dusted a bit and started watching THE HATFIELDS AND McCOY’S as John started to get dressed for work.
The phone rang. It was Steve Sicarra. He was the first to call me, so I agreed to go out. I drove to Los Gatos and we walked around the Old Town together. We ate at a place called STEAMERS and I ordered the Pacific Red Snapper. Steve ate the shark. We argued a bit about George Jones and Susan Low as I explained how I was alternating between the two relationships. What could I say? I was still trying to find the right fit for myself and I was attracted to both of them.
Steve argued, “It wasn’t fair for you to do that.”
I tightened my lip and answered politely, “Well, it was as long as I knew I was being faithful. In other words, I didn’t go beyond my limits.”
“I still don’t agree. You’re the first ‘sort of guy’ that I’ve really met who feels this way.”
I asked, “Are you sure?”
I almost felt like he really liked me because of it.
We continued our way through Old Town and had some Black Cherry yogurt. We ate it in my car. I shared my first gay experience with ‘Craig from Palm Springs’ (circa 1979) and how we met on the beach in Oahu.
He laughed and said, “That’s great!”
I think the story of us on the lifeguard deck excited him.
After finishing-up our yogurt in my car I started to drive. I drove by T.D.’s, the singles bar and attempted an entrance. We did make it inside without our ID’s being requested and danced for a while. We watched the video screen and the nearby pool game that was going on. Steve was drinking a coke and grenadine while I sipped on a glass of white wine. By 11PM we had left. I dropped Steve at his temporary pad. We exchanged a friendly good-night.
Steve said, “I’ll call you.”
“Okay,” I smiled.
He is really still getting over his situation with Scott (George’s former manager at WHEREHOUSE RECORDS). He is moving out from the apartment he shared with Scott and is looking for a new place. We had a pleasant time. He’s kind of on the quiet side. He’s rather introverted and I often wondered what he could be thinking as I knew his brain was on overdrive. I did enjoy sharing this evening with him though.
(Years later, I learned that Steve married a woman and had about four or five kids.)
(Years later, I learned that Steve married a woman and had about four or five kids.)
When I arrived home at around midnight I showered and called mom.
“Hi Mom. I just called to say good-night.”
She was happy to hear from me. I asked about any breathtaking news but she didn’t have anything to report. There was no news. No news can be good news.
I had a cup of tea and went to bed.
“If you are cold, tea will warm you. If you are too heated, it will cool you. If you are depressed, it will cheer you. If you are excited, it will calm you.”
-William Gladstone, 1809-1898
British Prime Minister
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